You aren’t going to get better if you remain in the same routine that has you stuck.
You aren’t going to get any better if you engage in the same bad habits and associate with the same toxic people, day after day after day.
You aren’t going to get any better if you stubbornly stay in this place you’ve been your comfort zone even though you aren’t really comfortable at all.
You aren’t going to get any better if you refuse to admit there’s a problem. If you keep pretending you’re okay when you’ve been screaming on the inside. If you are too stubborn to accept that something is wrong, something is missing, something is unbalanced within you.
You aren’t going to get any better if you are adamant about handling it on your own. If you refuse to accept help from anyone else. If you keep telling yourself you made it this far on your own so there’s no reason to drag someone else into the mess. If you insist on pushing everyone who tries to help you away. If you keep playing the part of a lone wolf.
You aren’t going to get any better if you use distractions as temporary solutions. If you need to keep yourself busy in order to keep your mind off of the darkness. If your only coping mechanisms aren’t really helping you move past your baggage, they’re only helping you forget about it for a little while before it comes flooding back again.
You aren’t going to get any better if you procrastinate. If you constantly make excuses about how now isn’t the to do the things you need to do. If you keep telling yourself you’ll look into therapists tomorrow, you’ll tell your loved ones how you’re feeling tomorrow, you’ll start taking better care of yourself tomorrow.
You aren’t going to get any better if you go too easy on yourself — or if you go too hard on yourself. If you punish yourself. If you act like you’re a failure. If you tell yourself you deserve the pain. If you convince yourself there’s no changing.
You aren’t going to get any better if you keep blaming everyone else for your faults. If you blame your exes or your parents or your unfair childhood for your own toxic habits. If you act like everyone else needs help, but not you, never you.
All of the bad things that happened to you, all of the bad things people put you through, and all the bad habits you’ve developed as a result of trauma, are your fault. But you cannot make excuses for treating others with cruelty — or treating yourself with cruelty. You need to work toward healing. You need to focus on yourself. You need to do the right thing for your peace of mind.
You aren’t going to get any better unless you make a serious change. Unless you decide you aren’t going to settle for a self-destructive path anymore. Unless you decide you matter enough to get the help that you need, to get yourself back to a place where you can say you’re happy again.